Entertained.

This isn't worth a blog post at all... but who could i brag to about this? It doesn't make any sense, but I'm proud.
The other week I was watching Shawshank Redemption, and one of the posters Andy uses to cover the hole in the wall is of Raquel Welch. Well, I had this hunch that I knew who that was and before I even THOUGHT about it, I said to the person next to me (who was Ari or someone) "She was an actress. She's in One Million B.C. or something." I remembered the name Raquel Welch from a framed movie poster in my aunt/uncles' movie theatre room. One Million Years B.C. Super awesome.

Done.

"Promise me you'll never forget me, because if I thought you would I'd never leave."

-Winnie the Pooh

Nervous.

So but then what if...? And will I...? And is this...? And does he...?

I guess this is why it feels more natural to just chill out outwardly as it eats me inside.
A bruise? It's funny. It's that kind of painful where it almost feels like muscle soreness, but it stings just a little too much to feel good.
Stomach flips-just a glance at a word or a face.
The nails have some time... but if it doesn't work this time, it will be on to red, and purple won't have fulfilled the hopes associated with it.
And I'm not going to say anything. Unfortunately. Goodnight though.

Festive.

Wow. okay. I should definitely stop. NOW. Actually. This is ridiculous.

On another note-
I have a great feeling about this holiday season. :). I don't know why, but after watching Love Actually, I'm just super excited about the HOLIDAYS! Which is silly because it's prior to Halloween... but I don't know.

I've got to have my Buddha's Delight.

Trapped.

i'm stupid. die.

Held.

Enveloped in your arms, I’d love to stay forever

Promise to keep me close, and we can be together

I love the way your face looks when you’re surpirised

I love the way I feel when you compliment my eyes

There aren’t many things I want in life but you’re one I want the most

Please just don’t disappear

‘Cause I’m afraid of ghosts.

And I can feel my skin rising from my bones

And I feel scared and all alone

And I can feel the wind ripping through my hair

I look around and you’re not there.

But you don’t know, I’m singing in my bedroom about you

Look, here I am without you

And where are you now that I’d love to see your face and

How am I supposed to sleep with all this noise?

If there’s no more you can be

I just want you to hold me.

Positive.

I'm so happy for this year! I mean, maybe it has to do with me being a year older and I've changed. Maybe it's more that I'm not seen as a freshman. Maybe it has something to do with the social dynamics this year that I like so much. I don't know. But I am sure this is going to be a good year and I can't WAIT for things to just get STARTED. blarggghH!! The first two weeks are the hardest. that's what I think. Although, it seems like the beginning of the year a lot of the times is the calm before the storm. I thought that it might last year just have been that I didn't know what was going on with peoples' lives at the beginning of the year, but now that I know everybody better, I think it's actually just that the beginning of the year brings a low tide of dramatic issues with everyone. I LIKE IT. I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS YEAR.